Discernment in Subtilty

Extraordinary, defined as beyond what is normal or simple above ordinary. A term used to coin anything with something too much like "superman is extraordinary" or "that girl is extraordinarily beautiful" and things like that. Extraordinary, being more than normal is a compliment to anybody but have you ever thought that the word extraordinary has the same meaning as abnormal? Abnormal bears the meaning of something not typical or normal. The definition of extraordinary which is "beyond normal" falls under the definition of abnormal which is "not normal" like a rock. So being abnormal can be a compliment as much as being extraordinary can be an insult. Extraordinary can be quantified with the two words it has been composed of, "Extra" and "Ordinary". Extraordinary can also mean as nothing but something being more ordinary, not "more than ordinary" which is something above ordinary, but "more ordinary" meaning just more ordinary which is no different from being just ordinary at all.

That is just the puzzle with life. You can give a lot of things a lot of meaning according to your own perspective. Anything has a secret from within. The key to opening up that secret from the chest on which it is buried onto is up to you on how you will look unto it and see it beyond the words that it hides with. Understanding is the key to implications, getting deep to the implied is more than observation. Everything is implied to anything, the subtilty of it makes it more interesting to detect what lies beneath it. Everything can be implied but implication doesn't sell that is why a lot of things are made as obvious as possible to people just to sell. For example, there are so much ways to imply that something sexual has happened to the protagonists in a movie which they do in the early days. But nowadays it seems that writers and directors say it is essential to have those kind of scenes in their movies because of it is a part of the plot. Those are parts of the movies that can be made implied but instead is still shown for it sells to the people at a monetary value and they still say it is for art's sake. It is just the liberation of time for it art is not the change of time. Art doesn't need to be obvious and be there as for it will gain monetary value. The beauty of it can be seen by different people in different perspectives which gives its subtilty the essence of it. Something so beautiful can't be seen by everybody nor can be recognized by anybody, but can only be seen as for who understands what that beauty is made of and avert their sight of perception to the obvious beauty it shows at first glance for it is not the essence of it but how it will be interpreted by understanding that person or thing.

ainzley
2011

Bliss of Euphoria

"When you see the tassels, you will remember and obey all the commands of the LORD instead of following your own desires and defiling yourselves, as you are prone to do." quoted by a very good friend of mine from Numbers 15:39. A very biblical answer to my problems and hardships at that time. In the midst of despair she was one who had the care to give me courage to keep on standing. One to be able to talk to and share the bitterness from within me without any complaint nor judgement. One who was there when I was most alone and had no one to turn to except God and work. This pulchritudinous lady is somewhat a very good friend of mine as I stated at the beginning of this write-up. Alluring and ravishing, she was the first friend I made in college. As quiet as I am where I never really talk to anyone I don't know nor made eye contact with them, I may just be a snob of some sort but she was bold enough to come to me and ask that we become friends. Maybe there is that certain charm of her that will made you feel light and blessed or she is just in fact, a great deal of beauty who dazzles everyone around her with such angelic feel. As I said she was the first friend I made in college and because of her that circle has grown, she has continued to be there even though I sort of cut-off our friendship for not being wise enough, she had been and has continued to be a good friend even though we don't really talk about anything special, she may be the wonder of friendship. Attractive isn't a term to describe her, she attracts people, a lot of them are boys, like bees in the sweet scent of a flower looking for nectar. Everywhere she goes she knows someone that is probably the essence of her popularity. Attractive and enticing but that is not her biggest asset but is her devotion to God. Everything she does is purpose of God. For she may resemble an angel, she is still human who is far from perfect. She is ignorant in a lot of ways that makes her hysterically amusing at times, a peculiar sense of humor in which is adorably cute when she laughs and kind of annoying when she laughs at loud[kidding there]. She acts the way she looks, like a child who finds everything in the world nice and good. She is able to find the good in people and able to touch the hearts of those who are deprived with her presence and words from God. She is not an angel but she can definitely qualify as one.

ainzley

2011 

Those Days :|

Have you ever had such a dull day before? A day full of nothing. It's like a silent movie with no color, no story, no conflict, and no climax, just a boring old movie. If you were one of the emoticons for a day, you would be the one with the straight face :|. Just absolutely boring, just simply plain. It must be inevitable to us people to experience on of those days one way or the other. There's is nothing really special about it, you're not even sad or anything. You just feel that you are naturally uninspired and is not in the mood to even give out a single smile. Those are really one of those days. Perhaps the reason behind that is because you just found the day it self as stale and you did nothing to even spice it up. Imagine waking up just before afternoon then listening to four hours worth of lecture, by the way that is only one class, then ending that lecture with a ton of assignments. Yeah, naturally one would feel depressed seeing that he has to go home just to stay up late and finish those assignments then start the day over again with more in store. You can probably call it "What the Heck day!". That kind of day will leave some kind of a weight once you near the end of it which is probably the most frustrating thing about it. It just wouldn't leave you alone and attached itself on to you and it is up to you if you can get rid of it on the next day. But luckily, one may be saved from this agony. That is with the help of a certain someone who would suprisingly talk to you out of nowhere  in which you may find climatic. You'll squeeze every bit of your time just to grant her modest request and be of good service to her. It can probably make your day worthwhile after all. Just hearing her soft voice will wanna make you smile and get inspired to continue on to your work. And for that I say thanks, and for that I am smling :) .

ainzley
2011

Tangled

I saw the trailer for this movie about October or November last year, Imagine that it has already been 3 months since I saw this but it will only be showing now on selected cinemas. The actual date of the showing for this movie was actually January 24, 2011. I really hate it when I have to wait so many months just to watch a movie and then sometimes I forgot about it. Even though it is already downloadable in some sites I would still prefer to watch it at the theatres, preferably in 3D. It is just one of those movies I have to watch in the movie house and not on my computer. What movie is this you ask? It is some kind of a parody of the famous Rapunzel fairy tale, still by Disney but it had added comedic scenes in it and may I say some what really entertaining and cute. It is entitled "Tangled". I can't really comment on it yet but I must say that I'm really looking forward to see it soon if I can. Hope fully I can. Anyways, who would also like to watch it? It's is really funny and cute. Come on, let's watch this. :D

By the way, she talked to me today and I saw her sweet face and lovely voice again. Even though it was only in a few seconds and not that we really had something to talk about since she was interested in something else, it totally made my day good.  You could say I got the scent of sweet sensation even for a couple of seconds. 

ainzley

2011 

Scent of Sweet Sensation

Never has been there a smell so sweet to the nose that it brings joy to whoever smells it. It tingles the mind and body into submission. A scent of sweet sensation as I call it.  No one can really tell what exactly this formulation is or what define what the scent is but for those who has the perception of ghost can tell whether or not this fragrance is around. Nothing can compare to this fragrance that is drifting around the the atmosphere in silence.  Perhaps that this is really in non-existent form to some but what do really exists? How can you be sure that the world you move on is reality or not. How can you feel that you are really one in this world and not in a dream. Smell the fragrance, see the beauty, hear the melody, taste the sweetness, feel the sensation. It does not matter whether or not you are dreaming, what matters is that you are able to be know what you feeling. You can tell yourself apart from others. Like any perfume, you can only distinguish yourself from the aroma you spread around you. Some may be too strong, some maybe too mild, some may be just right and some may be just sweet. It can vary to any people who smells it. It is not only unique to the owner but the scent too is unique to the one who smells it and each one smells differently from the others and from there you may find the one who you think has the sweet sensation you are looking for

ainzley
2011

Definition of "I"

Being confined into one area isn’t really his style, he likes to believe that he is purposely driven into the things he’s end up into doing. Cars are his passion and computers have become his close friend. Going easy on a lot of things really is a phrase for him but once he takes curiosity on one thing, he would probably pursue it until it dissipates. Pressure is one thing that he hates. He will get asphyxiated by it. His fixation on some things leads him to the road with no bounds. He is in pursuit of becoming a success in what he has entered into and he has no reason to remain confined within those fences. Decision is what life is, it is a tree that branches out every time a person makes one. It goes in a never ending loop maybe that is why it defines life. He does not hate life but he hates what defines it, making decision is the thing he avoids most. He often gets away with it by letting somebody else decide though that itself is a form of decision as well. Indecisive may coin the term for him but he is just a fearful person. Regrets make him weak, he hates regrets that it goes hand in hand with his indecisiveness. To make the wrong choice. To say the right thing means that you have to let go. To be able to back out means that you have the strength to move forward. Progress is the initiative of some. In honor is for some. But for him, it's regret. To be able to face that wrong move of his and take on both paths is him initiative although it is sometimes silly to walk both ways of the road. Often he tries to do both things just for nothing or no one be feeling let down. He is a man of his words, he will be there for you. He is a puzzle.

Just remembered that a certain someone also requested this and I never seemed to have complied.

ainzley
2011

Everyday and All Day

Cherishing the past, treasuring the moments, appreciating the time, and missing that person. One can really never feel those things until the time that everything just simply vanishes or plainly, just depreciating the feeling one has had. Overstatement is the same as understatement. Being too weak is the same as being too strong. Silence is the same as clamor. Ironically, Different things means the same in a perceptive context. Meaning one can be there at all times and not notice while one can vanish and be looked for, that is how the story goes. After a few days of being beside each other, a sudden bolt of lightning struck the chain that is keeping them in one colloquium. He suddenly has to decide to take an opportunity or stay behind. Naturally, he would just go for that opportunity without hesitation but it got a little more complicated than that. He had to leave her behind because of the difference in schedules. For the short time that they had known each other and sat together, he couldn't imagine being anywhere else. For the first time after his world stopped right before his eyes, this girl was able to make it move again. "Hold on to those who makes you happy" but she doesn't just make him happy but rather she makes him smile with joy, grin in sulk, and light in loneliness. She was able to remove the heaviness he was carrying around him since that faithful day. She was the one who means to him a lot more than anybody thinks. Maybe she was just the one who made him realized that the door had close opened another one just in front of him. Never did he want to depart from the happiness that she had brought to him even if it was by surprise. Insanely enough though, he chose to walk the path away from her by taking the opportunity that has befallen upon him. A regrettable choice he knows for he will not be seeing, talking, or passing notes to this girl again. It will only just in occasions if those times may come. A risk he has taken and he believe he was ready to take. And yet, he misses her a lot, walking the halls expecting to hear her voice, peering by the Fenestella in case, and writing much and much just to continue making her smile. Even though what happens, he wants to continue this story on with her. She has given him the revelation of what Epiphany really is.

for this will never wither

ainzley

2011